awake from hibernation

hardly feels like it..

my hibernation from blogging has been filled with being out and about with school internship, grad school work, church, getting engaged, wedding planning, and eating. I actually have not played PS3 for about 3 weeks now. It's pretty amazing...

I've found that it is better to be busy than to be bored with nothing to do. The weekends are just enough rest and escape from work and school, that I'm managing it alright.

School Internship, which takes up most of my time has been a joy and a blessing! I absolutely love teaching at my middle school. Got an awesome mentor teacher, and though it's busy and taxing on my voice, I find it worthwhile. We'll see how the high school internship goes, but I would love to teach in the middle school.

Grad school work, is just busywork and it makes me feel like I'm wasting my time. After 8 hours at school, going to class for another 4 hours does not bode too well. At least I'm finishing this master's in 1 year, so I should stop complaining.

Church has been refreshing and great! Bible study on Wednesdays has been encouraging and disciplining. Even though it means that I only have one free night (Monday), I've stopped complaining about all my time being gone. Also, being a youth group teacher has been great. I like my SRB group, and i'm looking forward to growing with them.

Also, I'm now engaged to my college sweetheart...it sounds really weird saying that...but it's true. haha. I'm really thankful and now that I'm engaged, I feel even more humbled and unworthy of it. I'm starting to get nervous too, but I'm also really excited.

With all this said, life is busy, and I'm enjoying it.



BTW, i realize i sound like such an old man...even with my writing style.......this sucks.

remember

I can't really put my finger to it...

I was looking for songs about the cross that could be sung at our church. Besides a few that I know, I could not think of many more.

I looked through a praise binder and it disgusted me with how many "I" songs and songs about how God is so good to us without mentioning the cross. It's AMAZING.

it seems like the message being sent through all these songs is that God is great because of the blessings he gives us...those feel-good thoughts. it's not necessarily wrong, but it's not complete either. I can easily see how this could correlate to wishy-washy Christian lives. We like to praise God for the now...if we're having a good day...if something is going well..it's some kind of blessing that He's given us. If things suck, God is not good...b/c my life is not going well. It's soo "ME" centered.

Why don't we remember the cross and how it pertains to us EVERY DAY!

You know, the old Testament is filled with examples of Israel forgetting God's deliverance and how he rescued them from their oppressors. They DID NOT REMEMBER. That's why they feared so much...that's why they fell away so much...that's why they were punished so much! Look at even Simba in the Lion King! He did not remember who he was, until his dad in the form of clouds reminded him who he was. Then he turned back and did what he was supposed to do..

We should remember the cross every day. That alone should be more than enough reason to give thanks and have joy everyday. More importantly, in my own opinion with a praise-flavored argument..there should be lots more songs written about it and SOLELY about it.

We must remember the cross.

Woe

This applies to every single country in the World, but I chose to single out America, because it seems to be the "police" of the world and the most powerful nation and the place where I reside.

I don't know, but I have of late been having very bitter feelings to America and this world.

I think one aspect that gets me is MY WAY. MY WANTS. MY NEEDS. granted, this shows up a lot in schools, and i think it's absolutely ridiculous! back in the old days, teachers were respected, but now teachers are mere puppets of the parents' wishes and everything caters to the students. Where has honor and respect gone?

Uh, apparently up the arses of those who established this country and set up the laws. NOTE: not the ones who founded this country. They came for a good reason. The ones who set up the country didn't.

What is freedom? The ability to do whatever you want and whenever? Wow. No wonder Paul talks about being slaves to righteousness. He understood that you're either a slave to your own sinful body or a slave to righteousness. With that being said, let's get one thing straight here. There is no such thing as FREEDOM as you think it.


But more than anything, America has TURNED AWAY FROM GOD

I like what the father of the Columbine victim had to say.. PLEASE READ


Bah, HUMBUG

God have Mercy on America...I think of the prophecies in the Old Testament against all those nations in Isaiah. I'm like...dang

...America sounds just like one of em.


Goodnight!

counting friends and counting down

i was on facebook tonight and browsing...

i realized that when i check other people's pages out, i looked at how frequent their walls were posted on...and how many friends they had. haha

and then i look at mutual friends...and then i'm like...wow. i haven't talked to some of them in like years.

and then i wonder why i am facebook friends with them (not in a bad way)...

and then i thought about how facebook can and probably does determine some people's worth and value.

and then it made me cringe..


and on a side note..

counting down 1 week til I report for Student Teaching!

canker wars

So, I'm taking my JHU buddies out for Korean BBQ.

We eat grilled galbi, sahm gyub sahl, and bulgogi....

I eat well.

Maybe a little too well...

And I obviously have no regard for my pain nerves...b/c i burned my lips, tongue, and throat....


OR DID I?


My throat swelled up like a knot...my inner lips were sensitive and painful....my tip of tongue was in pain...and to cap it off...

I developed 4 canker sores on my left undertongue...4 more on my right undertongue...2 on my lower lips....3 on my upper lip...and about 4 mini ones near the tip of my tongue....


That incredible math equation equals....WATER and JOOK (liquidy rice) for 3 straight days....and DUK GOOK for 3 more straight days....


the weird part was...it didn't seem like the grilled meat was too hot...even tho i ate it pretty much off the grill..

so my conclusion is that..it got slightly burned and then i got infected somehow....

anyhows, i'm glad that's all over..

preview of the upcoming post

here is a preview of my upcoming post (i say upcoming..because i want to wait til this certain episode is over...and then i'll go into more detail...)

CANKER SORES...


SWOLLEN THROAT...


EATING ONLY JOOK AND DUKK GOOK.....


PAIN WHEN TALKING.....


all due to....


a KOREAN BAR-B-Q?????





coming soon

the 2nd law of thermodynamics

in my own words...it says


a body at rest will naturally decay...without work....

i love its applicable truth, especially in the realm of purity.



i like to phrase it this way...

the 1st law of spiritual purity

a pure body at rest will naturally become tainted.....without fighting


yes...FIGHTING